In even better news, I lost four pounds!
The down side to that was some of that is post break up depression weight loss... BUT the good news of that is it's at least post break up weight LOSS and not post break up weight GAIN :D
See? There's always a silver lining. :)
It is scientifically proven that it takes 21 days to start to rewire your brain and build new habits. I started a 21 day clean eating ritual and though I'm only on day four, it's going well. I still allow myself one little thing each day that's not so clean, like one day I had a donut, another I allowed myself a soda, but I'm noticing, at least for me, the more good food I put into my body, the more the bad food bothers me.
It's like why am I going to all this trouble just to ruin it with one bad choice?
That last soda I had, didn't even appeal to me and I don't think I finished it.
I'm excited about that, because I don't just want to change habits,
I want my attitude to follow. I want to start caring about what I put in my body, realizing it truly does make a difference and that I matter enough for the effort.
Trust me, these are all huge changes for me. :)
One of my new habits, is that I started drinking green tea... okay you have to understand, my family is British and I still don't drink tea. I HATE tea! Tea, and coffee... belch :p
All that aside, green tea kept coming up in my meditations on food and diet so I started drinking it, assured I would fail and at first I was right, I hated it. It was awful and no matter how I tried fixing the concoction I still ended up chugging it like some disgusting thing I just wanted rid of fast.
I didn't quit though and I'm at about the two week point of drinking one cup every day and I've found that if I add a decent splash of non fat organic milk (not cream I hated it with cream) it's tolerable. I don't dread drinking it anymore so that's a plus! :)
Give me another week and I'll start adding a second cup to my day... oh joy... oh rapture.
So all in all the habit changing is going well. For the 21 days I've committed to not eating out, that's been the hardest part, but I figure why on earth sabotage myself like that! After the 21 days, we'll see. I still know eating out will always be my biggest weight challenge so I may wait until I'm stronger and at a MUCH lower weight before I bring that back in. Wish me luck on that, even as i sit here writing that, I am craving a night out at House of Blues!
Sigh....
At the end of the day though, again, I have dreams and I won't get them at this weight, I truly believe that. For me the weight is a block to my happiness and I will no longer be satisfied with half a life! One block at a time, I'll get there. :) Here's to 4 more pounds gone forever and to the new low on the scale, a number I haven't' seen in YEARS! Can't wait to see what next week holds, I'm in a lot of pain right now at the end of this relationship, but I can't let it stop me. I have to use the pain for strength and somehow, that's exactly what I intend to do.
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